safe again (2010/01/16)

I feel so safe
I feel so safe
I feel so safe
in this world
that is so unsafe
in this life that is
so unsafe
where death is
imminent
since you
never know
when you're
going to meet it
in this life
I feel so safe

it's your love
that's been
safeguarding me
all these years
all these years
I was so scared
refusing your love
meant refusing
life
now that I've let
my guards down
I can feel safe again.

new day (2010/01/12)

why live?
it hurts to be alive
what pleasure there is
I derive from
my predicament
the role I've cornered myself
into
over the many years
peace is elusive and
promises nothing but
the cessation of my
identity
who will I be when
I cease to fight
for the right to
be me?

and yet
on the borders
of my mind
looms silence,
promising
a new day.